Making an Impact

Sometimes in life things happen that makes such a huge impact that your life is changed forever. You know that these memories will stay with you forever and you become emotional because they are the only thing you have left. Just memories that has changed your life. You know that nothing will ever be the same again.

A year ago when I arrived in Seattle I was well off, happy and ready to explore a part of me that I have never seen before. I graduated from a top law school in Australia and just started a relationship with Mr. G. I had an expectation of how life was to pan out and what the future was gonna hold for me. Though nothing turned out the way I had hope, it has has taught me many lessons. You win some in life and you lose some and fate has quite the humour in teaching you a lesson. Along the way some lessons might be hard to swallow while others may cause extreme heartache and the feeling that life can't go on, but at the end of the day what doesn't kill you makes you strong.

When Mr. G. and I broke up I thought life will never go on and that I have lost everything I came to Seattle for. Ironically, we are now close friends and even though romantically I no longer have that connection with him. I have gained a friend that has been through so much with me. Someone that has been through some hard times and been through some of the most emotionally times with me. Through the tears, the fights, the screams and the fun times. Yet, through all that we are still very close friends. I think it really shows someone's true characters to be able to maintain a friendship after so much when other would have given up already.

I think I will remember the good times more than the fights. I don't think I can recall any really. But what I do remember is the first new year eve I spent in Seattle, the pink pig car wash sign I saw while driving down Denny. Having my first chocolate martini at Dilettante or walking through Pike Place market in the cold and getting my Starbucks at the first original store. Even the simplest things of riding on the Seattle Lake Union Transit or the monorail from Westlake to Seattle Centre. These are the things that Seattleites take for granted and yet I have treasured every moment of in the year that I have been here. This is because I knew that my time will come to an end sooner or later. I was living on the grace of the US immigration.

For the past month I have wondered every time I walk pass something whether it will be the last time I will be able to see it. I wonder if it will still be there when I come back one day and if so how long will it take for me to be able to come back. Every time I saw a familiar face, I don't want to say goodbye and I always give them a huge hug when I do, because I never know whether it will be my last time. Take for instance Mr. C. whom has started dating others already, I still like to think that we can be great friends and even though I know that he no longer cares about me in the way I still about him. I still think of the things we did together and the great memories we had.

Sometimes, I like to think that I have made an impact here in Seattle and have somehow affected the lives of others. The true is that when I have left and when the sun comes up the day after, they lives will still move on. Yet, the sad thing is that as a matter of fact, it is Seattle and its wonderful people (though at times full of drama) has made a long lasting impression and great impact of my life.

I think I will miss being able to see the Space Needle from afar when I walk downtown. I think I will miss being so close to Pike Place Market. I think I will miss going to R Place, the Chapel, Madison Pub and the Cuff. I think I will miss the rain. Above all I will miss my friends.